The moment when....

~you pray you said the right thing

~you hope you gave the right advice

~you wish you had heeded that small prompting

~you wonder if you had waited a moment longer if it would have changed anything

~you realize that you might not get a second chance

~you realize what could have been

It's funny how life teaches you it's lessons. Sometimes I wonder if it is the most fair... aka it's not, but you definitely end up getting the point. I guess it's just what you decide to do after those moments of realization that make YOU who you are. Don't like it? Then change it.

This is home

Due to recent events my version of "home" has gotten turned upside down a bit. I have come to a new realization lately. Where is home?

{1} the place where me, mom and jay are all perfectly content chatting away at 2am and falling asleep in the same double bed.... comfy cozy no?

{2} the place where my dad kills me with his quiet but genuinely awesome sense of humor

{3} the place where I feel like I belong even though I don't feel like I have a physical place to belong anymore

{4} the place where I am fine with being the accusee of giggles in the wee morning hours because jay and I are quoting movies

{5} the place where we can do absolutely nothing and me being ok with it because they are around

{6} the place where Kensi is doted on mercilessly by the whole crew

Whether the east coast or midwest- Anywhere they are, I am home. <3

the ones that come & go

To all the he's.

the time he kissed me on the cheek

and I felt like a million bucks

the time he told me we fought like

an old married couple

the time he brought me a gatorade

and the nastiest cold medicine I have

ever had because he knew I didn't feel good

the time my heart hurt because

I told him I didn't feel the same way

the time I very sincerely thought

I was going to throw up when he

told me I wasn't right for him

the time he told me I was beautiful

the time he still talked to me after

I threw up in his sportscar

the time he simply chatted with

me when there were a million more

exciting things going on at the lake

the time he texted me at 5:30am

because he knew I was up at work

the time he made me realize how

well I deserve to be treated

the time I called him to come watch

a movie when I felt like crap and he

canceled his plans to come.... and didn't tell me

the time he told me I deserved better

the time he was completely and

painfully honest about his mistakes

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for the "ones that have come and gone"

New Lady in My Life

Meet my little miss Kensington Beck. Who knew you could love a person so small so much ;) I am definately one of the luckiest aunts around. Welcome little love!!

inner chi. time for you

Tranquility.

finding that Beautiful place that you know has to be somewhere inside of you.
find it.
disregard what doesn't matter
take the time to find those you care about
do you know who they are?

RESULTS OF "THE MIX"

LOVE these colors...........

Still MODERN and yet has enough softness to smooth the 650 90-degree angles! ok well maybe not so much the pic above.. but below definately.

AdOrE this blue.... um yes.

Don't like the bed. But I think I have proven my point!

INTERIOR DESIGN

So, here I am googling pictures of "interior design". I find 2 very distinct styles that are near and dear to me..... my best friends style, and mine. Can you tell whose is whose? Here is where we clash.

How does one feel all comfy cosey when your couch has 650 right angles in it?? or your coffee table could impale you with one pass? Keep the clean design but soften it. Not saying that your living room has to be pretty in pink.... but really? There have to be more colors to a living room other than white, grey and black. Right?? It's just not my cup of tea I suppose. Now for a combination of the two... a happy medium... does it exist? I accept this challenge............................

The mix??? to be continued.